Monday, May 23, 2011
It's funny how life can surprise you in so many ways. Yesterday backstage, the last night of my play, I'm sitting down, getting ready to go on for one of my scenes when "that guy from the last two posts" and I start heavily flirting, and he's like a foot taller than me, and we're about to kiss for the first time when I turn around, get a chair, get up on it, and kiss him. It was my first kiss ever, and it felt weird and strange and wonderful and nice all at the same time. It's something wonderful, and unexplainable. We kissed a total of four separate times, and I had no idea what to do, but with practice, maybe I'd know what to do:)
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Well, you know that guy in the last post... The one that was my boyfriend? Well, he is my boyfriend no longer. After two weeks, we cracked...or he cracked. He broke up with me, and I could NOT stop blushing for the entire rest of the day. But it was a mutual decision... Summers coming, and I will be on vacation, and we just will never see each other. Plus I have other men in mind...:) but unfortunately there was no first kiss....wow, I really do sound like the stereotypical teenage girl...:)
Sunday, May 15, 2011
I know that I usually don't talk about myself...but sometimes you just have to. This month has been so weird...good and bad...mostly bad last week...mostly good this week. So by this time you are wondering why it was good and why it was bad, you are like "stop stalling and just say it already!" Well, I'm getting to it. So at the end of the semester all of my teachers are cracking down and trying to fit everything in that they forgot to teach. So while my teachers are being careless and rushing through everything,I have failed two tests, and gotten bad grades on the rest...and along with that, there has been SO much drama between my friends like: "you stole my pudding"..."yeah I did, what are you going to do about it?" So that was the bad and here comes the good. I've been single FOREVER...like forever...I never really even thought about being in that kind of relationship, I just don't even like to think about having a 'boyfriend' but when you are the only single person out of your entire school...you kind of get singled out as the "forevermore single type" so people don't think of you in that way. But in my theatre group I have found a guy that I like a lot...and so now he is my boyfriend. Yeah....so...it's going alright for now. But now I know why girls are so weird when they are in relationships. Even though it's stupid, there is always a line of questions running through your mind "why does he like me?"..."why would anyone like me?"..."does he like me for me physique or for my personality?". It's just so strange to not be single... I've always been the 'lone wolf', the 'single lady'. Anyways... I will update later...or not.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
A million bodies all around you, music blasting, sweat dripping from your forehead, your hand stretched towards the sky, waving back and forth with the music. Your heart begins to copy the drum beat, and your feet thump at the concrete below you, your hips seem to have a mind of theIr own, swinging back and forth. You close your eyes, and feel everything changing, you don't want it to end... For once you are in perfect harmony with the world, for once you don't have to pretend... For once you can just live. Everyone pushing against you, the smell of alcohol and smoke fills the air, everyone dancing, everyone trying to get closer. Your legs ache with the effort of jumping up and down and bending and beating. The band begins to play your favorite song, and you begin to cry because it makes you so content, you are at peace with the world if only just for a second. You begin to see your life differently, and as you sing along with the song, everything changes, and suddenly you're different, and suddenly you know what you want most...everything changes....