The End of the World

I honestly do not believe the world will end anytime soon, so don't get all antsy and freaked out.  And, no, I don't believe in the whole "2012" thing with the Mayans.  First of all, are we not forgetting about leap years?  In Mayan times, they didn't have leap years, so, December 21st 2012 on the Mayan Calender would not be December 21st on our Calender, so, you can stop freaking out about that if you have some sliver of belief in it. But, I do think we should all think about what we would do if it was the end of the world.  Or, if it was the end of our life.  If you had a week to live, what would you do?  Would you go sky diving?  Would you travel?  What would you do?  If I had a week to live, I would non-stop listen to The Beatles, search for the truest friend one could have, talk for hours, eat pounds and pounds of chocolate, go cliff diving, and skinny dipping, and I would finally fall in love with life.  I just wish it didn't take looming death to make us live our lives.  Why can't we just go cliff diving, sky diving, traveling, etc., without a reason?  Why can't we all just fall in love with life?

I wish everyone (including myself) could just wake up and realize that time is limited.  It is a scary feat to live one's life, because it means accepting one's eventual death.

I guess what's gotten me all worked up is the trailer for "Seeking a Friend for the End of the World."  Every time I see the commercial, I want to cry my eyes out.  I have a list of about fifty things I want to do before I die, and let's just say I've accomplished less than the amount of fingers I have on one hand (p.s. I have the average amount of fingers).  Well, I guess I can conquer the world tomorrow, but for now, sleep.

A Female Warrior

For some reason I do all my writing at about two in the morning... perhaps it is all boredom... perhaps it's just when my brain works best... maybe it's loneliness, whatever it is, I'm writing this post at 2:17 in the morning.  But anyways, I've all of a sudden had an increase in toughness, and courage, and it's all due to watching Snow White.  After coming back from the theater, I felt ready to kick in some faces and swing round my bow and arrow.  It's a good movie, and I would say that you should see it, though the ending is pretty predictable.  So now I feel like being a female warrior, so if you have any trolls that need fighting, call me up.

Fighting trolls sure would be fun, better than sitting here watching creepy infomercials, and commercials that advertise "phone services for hot singles" and other stuff like that.  Doesn't the TV know I need something entertaining to watch at 2:25 in the morning?!!!!!  I'm also simultaneously on Facebook, but of course no one is up, and nothing entertaining is happening.  If only I could defeat a troll!!!! Emphasis on the defeat, because I would not want to die...... yet.  Everyone is deleting their Facebook because apparently it isn't cool anymore, but I like it!!! So, I'm dedicated and loyal.... and so what if Facebook has been around for awhile?!!!!!! It's easy, and you can call it vintage to look cool!! I really don't know why I'm using so many exclamation marks........I just really do not want to go to sleep.  I've had about six cups of coffee today, and so I'm all hopped up!!!!

My dogs smell really bad....BUT I JUST BATHED THEM!!!! It just doesn't make sense :'(

I WANT SOME PUDDING :'(

YES, I COMPLAIN A LOT

OKAY

Sargent Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club

You don't know how much I wish James Blunt sang the song "You're Beautiful" to me.  I wish people could just say what they feel, and go with it: follow their heart!!  I try to live that way, but it seems I'm the only one, and that makes it hard.  Another night watching Bridget Jones's Diary all alone, blogging, and drinking.... a Jones soda.  At the moment I sort of wish I was living on a Hippie commune, that would solve the loneliness, and hippies say the way they feel, so wouldn't it be perfect?! Unfortunately, I have no idea where to find a hippie commune, and I would have no way to get there because I'm stuck being an imprisoned teenager.

Lots of people probably feel the way I do (I hope), and they are smart enough to not blog about it.  P.S. Do you like my Beatles reference in the title... I must be super cool:) (but we all know that's not true).  Anyways, back to the point, I'm not the only lonely person in the world.  I forget what movie it's from, P.S. I Love You, I think, but someone says something like "If we're all alone, then we're all together in that too."  I just wish we could all gather up the courage to be together.  We're all searching for something great to suddenly happen to us, and most of us don't realize that happiness is right at our fingertips.  I am just learning this, at this very moment.  It doesn't help to sit on your couch watching Bridget Jones's Diary wishing that you could have a Mark Darcy (Bridget Jones reference) come and sweep you off your feet....... and yes, all of this applies to me, and you're probably wondering what's wrong with me at the moment...the answer is, everything is wrong with me.  Just, embrace happiness, accept people for who they are: no one is perfect, and neither are you, and finally, allow yourself to fall in love, fall in love with chocolate for example.  I need to learn all of this.  May your life be infinitely better than mine.......etc.

Summer 2012

Summer.......sigh.  Summer isn't as fun as it used to be because:
a) I can't go to summer camps anymore
b) I don't get to see my friends everyday
c) I don't have a job (I tried, but no one wants to hire a teenage genius apparently)
d) I don't know what to do!!!!
So, if you have any ideas of what I should do: COMMENT!! or don't......

SUMMER PLAYLIST:
-Let Me In-Snowmine
-Wake Up-Arcade Fire
-You and I-Washed Out
-All I Need-Radiohead
-You Already Know-Bombay Bicycle Club
-Breaking Away-Ratatat
-To be with You-The Honey Trees
-Bad Girls-Blood Orange
-Eyes Closed- The Narrative
-Sunrise Sunset-We are Trees
-Little Talks-Of Monsters and Men
-In the Summertime-Mungo Jerry

My Record Collection

My record collection is quite extensive, I think, as I have only been collecting for two years or so.  And, I am in High School, therefore, I have no salary, so how I managed to scrape the money together to buy these is a mystery to me.  So, here is a partial list, of my favorite records that I have.
-Horses-Patti Smith
-Rewind-The Rolling Stones
-Wednesday Morning, 3am-Simon & Garfunkel
-Tapestry-Carole King
-Who's Next?-The Who
-Synchronicity-The Police
-The Soundtrack Cabaret-The Musical Cabaret
-Helpless Blues-Fleet Foxes
-State of Confusion-The Kinks

Heartbreak

It's been a long time, hasn't it?  I've been busy trying to live my life to the fullest, and all I can say is that it's not really working.  I wish people could just say how they feel, and follow the way they feel.  I also wish that life were more like the movies, and that good and interesting things happened to everyone everyday.  The terrible thing about growing up is that life isn't so great all the time, and that the world is a really horrible place to be.  The best thing we can do is to try and live life in a way that makes the world less horrible--I have trouble following through with this.

When I get knocked down, it's hard for me to get back up.  Knowing the truth about the world is new for me, and it all seems quite hopeless.  I've recently learned the power that people have.  People can hurt you, they can make you feel better too, they can make you happy, they can make you sad.  It wasn't until I realized this that I also realized that I have power over people too.  I can hurt them, or I can make them happy.  I know it's hard to live life in a way that is beneficial to others, because generally we just think about ourselves, but I want to try to start living for others.

After a recent heartbreak I learned who my friends are.  Friends are the ones that stick around to hear you complain, and try to make you feel better.  I want to be the type of friend that sticks around.  I was trying to live my life to the fullest, but really what I was doing was putting myself in the fast lane, and that's evidently exactly how to have your heart broken.  So I say, instead of living your life to the fullest, live your life for others, or live your life to be the best person you can be.

The first heartbreak is the worst I think (I hope).  It's not so much losing the other person, though that is much of it, but it's also the feeling of rejection, and finding out that someone doesn't want to spend forever with you.  I know it all sounds stupid, especially since it's 1:38 in the morning, and I'm going half insane from sleep deprivation.

I am now watching Bridget Jones's Diary for the third time tonight, and eating dark chocolate (at least it's good for my heart--my broken heart).

The overall theme of the story:  Don't live too fast, be the best you can be, live for others, and stay on a consistent sleep schedule so you don't end up like me.

And no, I haven't forgotten :)  Here are some unique songs to hold you over:
-"Cigarette Duet" by Princess Chelsea
-"Pretty Face" by Soley
-"Take Me Somewhere Nice" by Mogwai
*-"I'll Never Forget You" by Birdy
-"The Violet Hour" by Sea Wolf
*-"Hello, I love you" by The Doors
*-"I Can't Make You Love Me" by Bon Iver
*-"Somebody that I used to Know" by Gotye
*-"All by Myself" by Celine Dion


* Especially pertaining to my broken heart/ex-relationship

New Playlist

I'll Be Seeing You  by:  Billie Holiday
Who Loves the Sun   by: The Velvet Underground
First Day Of My Life    by: Bright Eyes
Coming Up Roses   by: Elliott Smith
Teen Age Thugs    by: Sonny and the Sunsets

i

i was just kind of thinking...
that I'm thirsty
that i need to study for my biology unit test
that i need to do my laundry
that i need to walk my dogs
that i need to call my friend and tell her i found her cat
that i need to clean my bathroom
......but I can't.  because i can't do anything except listen to this song:
Too Young to Burn  By: Sonny and the Sunsets

This is what I listened to while I carved a mango into a tree.......

1. It's a Hit -Rilo Kiley
2. I Fought in a War -Belle & Sabastian
3. Debra -Beck
4. Too Young to Burn -Sonny & the Sunsets
5. Fool to Cry -The Rolling Stones
6. Break it Up -Patti Smith
7. He was My Brother -Simon & Garfunkel
8. Footloose -Kenny Loggins
9. Rebel Yell -Billy Idol
10. You Got It -Jacuzzi Boys
11. Automatic Love -Minipop
12. I Get Nervous -Lower Dens
13. Wide Eyes -Local Natives
14. Teenage Girls -Bad Sports
15. Tuff Bananas -Refrigerator Gator
16. When Emily Cries -Television Personalities

Hey yo!

Well, Hey.
Love,
Abby

Experiencing Home through the eyes of a Tourist

Sometimes it's good to just take a step back, and go exploring in your own hometown. For me, it just happens to be the wonderful Indianapolis. The thing I love most about this city is the diversity, and how the city has just about everything. You can walk on one street and pass by five galleries, and then turn the corner and go by Night Clubs, and then walk by Theatres, and then end up in a park, surrounded by museums. My usual spot is Mass. Ave, and I haven't really explored beyond that, but, a couple of days ago, I turned a corner and ended up someplace special. And there it was, The Earth House Collective, cafe/ministry/community center, 237 N. East Street, Indianapolis, IN, 46204. It's a wonderful place to hang out, and grab a bite to eat. Then, there's Vibes music, 1051 E. 54th Street, Indianapolis, IN, 46220. Those are just two of the new places I've found, and fallen in love with. So, if you live here, in Indianapolis, become a tourist in your own city. And, if you're ever in need of a vacation, come here, because, this really is a great city, and you need to come and experience it for yourself.

HARRY POTTER!

SHOUT OUT TO ALL MY HARRY POTTER BROTHERS AND SISTERS! LOVED THE MOVIE, LOVED THEM ALL.... SAD THAT HARRY POTTER IS OVER THOUGH.... ALWAYS WILL BE A FAN FOREVER AND EVER!

Playlist For My Funeral:

1. A Song To Pass The Time by: Bright Eyes
2. Mushaboom by: Feist
3. Flightless Bird, American Mouth by: Iron & Wine
4. Here Comes Your Man by: Meaghan Smith
5. She's Got You High by: Mumm-Ra
6. December by: Norah Jones
7. Us by: Regina Spektor
8. Let Me Sign by: Robert Pattinson
9. Leaves In The River by: Sea Wolf
10. The Rose Captain by: Sea Wolf
11. There Is A Light That Never Goes Out by: The Smiths
12. We're Going To Be Friends by: The White Stripes
13. Vagabond by: Wolfmother
14. Coffee and Cigarettes by: Augustana
15. The Youth by: MGMT
16. Miss Misery by: Elliott Smith
17. Sheena Is A Punk Rocker by: The Ramones
18. Dancing With Myself by: Billy Idol
19. Pa Pa Power by: Dead Man's Bones
20. These Burgers by: The Moldy Peaches
21. Who's Got the Crack? by: The Moldy Peaches
22. Dance With Me by: Adam Green

Don't ask, just Listen.

Random Playlist:

1. Black Leaf Falls -Sea Wolf
2. Coffee and Cigarettes -Augustana
3. Bad Kids -Black Lips
4. Crystalized -XX
5. Barbra Streisand -Duck Sauce
6. Liar -Mumford and Sons
7. My Dream Girl Don't Exist -Neutral Milk Hotel
8. Skinny Love -Bon Iver
9. God Only Knows -The Beach Boys
10.Sixteen Military Wives -The Decemberists

My complete fail......

I'm temping as a secretary for a fabric store,for just a couple hours, but still. So, here is one conversation on the phone gone completely bumpy:

Me: "________ upholstery, Abby speaking."
Them: "Can I speak to _______?"
me: "he isn't here right now, but can i take a message?"
Them: "yeah, can you tell him that _____ from _______ wants to talk to him."
Me: "sure." (awkward 10 seconds of silence).
Them: "don't you want my number....?"
Me: "yeah, that'd be good..."
Them: (mockingly muffled 'ugh') ____-______
me: "okay."
Them: "and what was your name?" (what's he going to do, have me fired from my volunteer job?)
Me: "Abby."
Them: "alright, just have ____ call me."
me: "alright, bye."
Them: "..." (hung up)
Alright, so not that bumpy, but still pretty much a fail. :)

I'm on vacation from vacation....

Well, school is out for summer vacation, and I'm off on vacation from vacation, sitting on the beaches of wonderful Florida. Typically I'm not a Gulf of Mexico girl, usually I'm West Coast all the way, but hey, a beach is a beach. I'm staying with my Uncle Jeff (nickname Jeffey) for a week, and then with my Aunt Julie.

My iPod is dead, and I'm dying of music withdrawal. It's almost as bad as the time my brother and I drove 7 hours straight while my Dad was sleeping in the backseat, and my brother played continual country music, and I became pretty much physically ill from such bad music (or it was the McDonalds and Mountainous terrain). I probably deserved the endless country music because when I was eight, and we were driving to Georgia, I threw-up on his XBOX (maybe my aim was on purpose, maybe not).

What was I talking about? Well, anyways, now I'm relying on my Walkman from 2003. Luckily I brought some good CDs: The Cure, Bright Eyes, Be Your Own Pet, Giant Drag, and the Beastie Boys. Hopefully I will survive... Maybe I will have to make a stop to Target, or wherever they sell CDs down here. Usually I boycott big store chains (except you, Urban Outfitters) just because I like to support all the small stores, and I hate corporate America, but, seeing as they don't have many stores except giant chains where everything is made in China or Indonesia, I'll endure. :)

Friday playlist iii.

1. Twilight -Elliott Smith
2. An Awful Lot of Running -Chameleon Circuit
3. Dance With Me -Adam Green
4. Loose Lips -Kimya Dawson
5. Lucky Number Nine -The Moldy Peaches
6. This Place Is A Prison -The Postal Service
7. Boy Boy -Lissy Trullie
8. Vampire -Antsy Pants
9. Two-Headed Boy -Neutral Milk Hotel
10. Sheena Is A Punk Rocker -The Ramones

It's summer!

Yea!!!!!!!! School is finally out! ...And I am already bored. I need to get a job, but no one is hiring. So I've been in the library this entire week trying not to lose all my brain cells. Sleeping in has been cool, but then I wake up and only have half of the day to do things.

In other news, I'm going to Florida for like a month!!! So, yea. My life is pretty uneventful right now, so I'll just stop this sorry post before you die of boredom. Hope you are having a better summer than me.
Xoxoxo,
Abigail

Ps. If you are in need of a music fix, try out these bands:
The Who
Weezer
Yes
Iron & Wine
The Moldy Peaches

My big splurge of the season.....

I have been saving up money for a trip to Half Price Books, which is one of my favorite places on earth!!!!! I bought 4 books, and 14 vinyl albums. This totaled up to be 90 bucks!!!! I've never spent that much money at one time (that's a lie). It was so extraordinary, my hands shook as I digged through my pockets looking for my wad of cash. So I fork the money over in one large ball of cash. That was yesterday, and already I have read one of the books, and listened to 5 of the records. So yeah, I'm spending money in a recession!

Ps- if you're looking for a good book, get Go Ask Alice by: anonymous. I finished it today, and now it's my favorite book.

I really want some pickles, a Tylenol, and a bottle of Jack Daniels (jk)